Stranege are the ways of Divine

A beautiful sunset, a lovely evening, your desire to meditate, and you end up talking to some guy who used to come watch the sunset with a beer. Strange indeed are the ways of the divine. And then he tells you that good thing you had been anticipating for. strange indeed........ its amazing how life is a journey, and I guess we work hard to try and find out why we work hard. Its that simple, the means justify the end as well as the end justifies the means. Its a mutually satifying relationship. We live our entire life within the realm of our thoughts, what do we think is it possible to go out of this circle and realize the actual beauty of life. It is the mind that creates the thought and it is the mind that gives us enjoyment with that thought. So is it that the mind is just creating these thoughts just to satisfy itself and there is no actual relation between reality and the actual world? What are we without the 5 senses. We cannot percieve the things as such with our senses. That means we are restricted to our senses. That means there is something beyond the senses, beyond what is apparent. What is belief? Will all these q's ever end? Is is always like this? Does God have any questions? Are these arising within the ocean they were created within? or are they coming from somewhere else? Even our thoughts are limited by the things we have already experienced. We try to go back to these thoughts to try and understand new things, but to understand new things we need to understand new concepts and to know new concepts we need to understand new energies. Everything exists at a level, and if you want to attain that level you gotta input that energy. If you do, you will get it, if you d not, maybe you will not. If you understand this, all your fears will disappear, and then you can be fearless and just go for whatever you wanna go for. Fear of failure has to be eliminated. We do not understand concepts what we do not want to accept as reality. We need a channel to focus our energy. Shri Mataji is my mother. she knows what I want and she tells me to do hard work to become the superior being that I can be. Yet all is always the same, its just that the hing one may understand, another may not and then we have to go ahead and target the actual area of the problem and then try to eliminate the actual problems of the human race and we have to determine what we actaully want in life and then go and give it your full to try and achieve it, jai shri mataji.  

I Believe

Why do I sometimes doubt? What am I afraid of? Making the wrong choice? But what about any choice we make in a day to day life? when I think of study do I think about any safe amount of time I should I put into it, or I just try to put in as much as I can? So i guess it is basically the desire and the current circumstances that matter. Wherever you are, whatever you are, that is because of a reason. So just stop thinking an d just try to focus on trying to be the best in the moment in whatever work God has given you. Don't worry about it being a concept. just go for it. LIfe is in the effort in the moment. It is a journey not the destination. I guess the peaceful warrior was just a mental exercise, a way to train your mind in a different way, and that is exactly that all the people who preach success/ways to succeed preach. It is nothing more than doing things in a different way to get different results. Here though the thing is completely different and we can actually feel something happening which we do not understand. Why do we try to become better? to perform at a higher level, but why? I guess to come in the moment. When we come in the moment, nothing else matters and we can just focus on the present moment and not any results. This helps us experience the true reality? Maybe. One thing is for sure(is it?) that we will get the opportunity for whatever we desire to strongly. That opportunity helps us work for that thing and and when we complete the level we are allowed to go to the next level. We cannot progress to the next level unless we complete the level ,and many a times we tend to put our own problems as the fault of others or ... I guess we can waste our time if we want to, but the thing is time is limited and we have to be very careful how we are spending our time. Do not be trapped in the games of your own mind. The boy was falling yet he lost faith not and the winds turned to mattresses, he fell on a soft landing. The lord is always caring for us. Have this faith and be fearless, because when you are on the side of the Lord nothing can harm you.. Just be true to yourself, that is the most important thing. Do not depend on anything , on anyone for anything, be not afraid to do what you want to and feel is the right thing. Just go for it man. Have faith and take a leap. 'What I was, and what I am is so poles apart that I never thought that he could trap me ever yet I was wrong again, however high you reach on the mountain, the risk of slipping becomes, much more greater. be not fooled if you see a flat plain and you think that you are completely safe as every flat plain, as wide it may be always has an edge and where there is an edge there is always a danger of falling off. its not the work that matters its the effort and the belief behind the effort that matters. so go within and search, work, but care not for the results, nor for what people will think as what people think is just a mirror of your own fears/expectations. Believe in the truth within.

Where does time come from? Where does it go to? What do we choose?

Is this moment real? Why is everything so relative? Do my choices actually matter? At the end I think what I did only matters. The result entirely depends upon the doings I do, the decisions I make? But am I actually doing anything? Maybe not. If time does not actually exist, then nothing that is related to it exists, I do not know. What is hard work? Is it a way to penetrate the gateway or is it just another way of the mayajaal to keep me engrossed in the gross materialism and not pay attention to the truth? Should I follow my heart? I do not know? What makes me feel good? What appears right today, becomes wrong tomorrow, what was an absolute truth yesterday becomes just a conditioning today. Why do I exist? What is my purpose? Do I create just to satisfy my ego, becoming a sympathy receiver? Faith is the basis of all existance. But how does faith develop? By experiences? maybe, but a major part here again is the materialism. From another aspect if I see then I feel that at the end of the day it does matter what I resulted in and that mostly depends upon the decisions I made. Maybe someone sends time from somewhere, and it goes back to the same place, maybe. Maybe I just love the intellectual matrices and want to keep myself caught up in these and so is it a way of running away from the truth? I am pretty sure the truth is extremely simple. Oh Shri Matai why do these confusions arise? I surrender them to you and I hope I learn and move ahead. Jai Shri Mataji!!   

Confusion appears only when you look for a solution!!

"An idea that at first does not seem absurd, actually has no hope at all" I still have this line by Einstien written on a paper stuck to my almirah back home. It was a moment of pure daring when I thought of the things I COULD achieve, and magically it is all coming true. Some one said very wisely, when we request God for happiness, God gives us the opportunity to be happy(just take a moment to reflect upon it). It was in a similar confused phase of my life that I was introduced to someone who I did not know would change my life. Shri MAtaji!! No words are enough for my gratitude to my beloved mother for letting me experience myself. Though I always see in the hindsight but its is actually amazing what all happens when you surrender to the source that created you.